HEY! YOU ROCK!

Y'all. I am a MESS right now.
My house is a mess. My yard is a mess. My classroom at school is a mess. My dog is dirty, I'm out of shape, and I can't even remember the last time I cooked my husband a meal.
Can I just tell y'all about the past month? First, I got sick. I had this weird hormone imbalance and my face exploded with painful acne and I had a terrible headache I couldn't shake for days. Then, I decided to reorganize (okay, organize areas that haven't ever been organized) my whole house. You know, going through the entire basement, closets, endless piles of papers, that sort of thing. In the middle of the reorganizing session (that's currently still happening), we went camping. After that, my dog got super sick because he UNZIPPED MY BAG AND ATE MY RETAINERS (excuse me, what?!), and he was throwing up and had diarrhea because he had plastic in his insides. So we had to go to the vet three days in a row to get x-rays and medicine, and in the midst of that he also sprained his shoulder! Back to the vet, jiggity-jig. I leave him there for a week while we go on vacation to Yellowstone and the Tetons, and now I'm sick AGAIN. Sore throat, runny nose, cough.
Moms, life is hard sometimes. It just is. And I want to tell you something.
You are doing AWESOME. You are a ROCKSTAR. You deserve to be CELEBRATED!
Sometime last year, in a moment of feeling inadequate and not good enough, I wrote out all the things I felt like I needed to be doing regularly. They haven't changed much. Spiritually, I need to have consistent personal prayer time and Bible study, as well as following along with different Bible studies I'm involved in or my church is involved in. My husband and I help lead the young married and college groups at our church, so we need to be meeting with people individually or as couples, mentoring them and praying with and for them. I also sing on the worship team at church, so I need to be in prayer about that as well. As far as work, I need to be praying for my students daily, lesson planning, and keeping an organized classroom. I also need to be reading articles about education and creative new teaching methods. I need to keep our home clean, too, putting things away and dusting, vacuuming, mopping, and keeping up with laundry, ironing, and the garden. I need to be organized for all of our meals and grocery trips, and I need to prepare those meals daily. I also need to be in shape, work out regularly, and have a slammin' sex life with my awesome husband. Speaking of my husband, I need to respect, encourage, support, and pray with him daily. I have future goals, too, like writing books, having a family, and building a camp, so I should probably be working towards those things, too. Then there's the miscellaneous category, including things like flossing my teeth, taking vitamins, practicing guitar, reading educational books, walking my dog, and the list could probably go on for pages.
Oh, and let's not forget about rest...I need to have a balanced life with time to catch up with friends, enjoy my family, and recharge, because that's the way God designed us.
No wonder most women feel like they can't "do it all"...because we CAN'T! I don't even have my own kids yet, and I can't even begin to keep up with all that stuff! I'm sure a lot of you are more organized than I am, but most days I just feel like I'm drowning. I often think that if I could just get to where I'm treading water, then I could be fine for a while and keep up with things. It's probably my unique (read: procrastinating, creative, messy) personality, but I honestly am not even sure I'd know how to tread water if I got to the surface of all the things that weigh me down. I don't know if I've ever been on the surface long enough to learn how.
I'm learning something, though. I don't know that God even calls us there in the first place. If we could tread water by ourselves, we probably wouldn't need him. He gives himself as a life jacket for us, and I think we're idiots if we don't take it.
Here's a message for you: NO ONE has it all together. Nobody's real life matches their perfect Facebook/Twitter/Instagram/social-media-of-your-choice life.
What's the result of realizing this? Freedom.
Yes, freedom! Do what you can each day, and forget about the rest. Put Jesus first, your family second, and celebrate your accomplishments. Did you hear that? CELEBRATE! Today! Right now! Grab some balloons, turn up the music, and give yourself a dance party. Turn up your jam of choice (some suggestions: Don't Stop Believing - Journey, Respect - Aretha Franklin, Firework - Katy Perry, Overcomer - Mandisa), twirl around, and jump up and down. If your kids are home, have them dance with you! Throw around some confetti and glitter. Then, go out and get some ice cream. Or stay in and eat ice cream. Make yourself a sign that says, "I'M AWESOME!" and tape it to your mirror. Do something that makes you happy enough to laugh until your stomach hurts. Draw. Paint. Decorate. Lie in the sun and take a nap. Go for a walk, a run, a swim, a bike ride. Watch "Kittens Inspired by Kittens" on YouTube twelve times. 
Why celebrate? Because you are FREE in CHRIST! We're no longer slaves - not just to our old selves - but to our to-do lists. Did you hear that? Your to-do list is not in charge of you! And, friend, if you don't know Christ, you need to get to. Trust me, he's the only way you're going to stay afloat in this life. You can't do it on your own.

I really do challenge you to celebrate yourself today. Even though my house is messy, it's still a roof over our heads that God provided for us. Even though there are weeds in my garden, there are colorful wildflowers and bright orange pumpkins, too. And even though I can't "do it all" all the time, Jesus is honored by everything that I do accomplish for his glory.
I want to hear your celebration stories! If you feel up to it, celebrate another mom as well. Remember, not just those who have kids are "moms." Anyone who takes care of someone else is! So wives, teachers, nannies, nurses, your own mom - celebrate the women in your life today. Write a letter, make a phone call, send a text. Have your kids make thank you cards. Invite a friend to your party and make "I'M AWESOME BECAUSE OF CHRIST IN ME" signs together. Jesus celebrates you, too. I can promise you that. Taking care of people is his work.
YOU'RE ROCKING IT! #celebratemessymoms today!
"For freedom Christ has set you free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery" (Galatians 5:1, ESV). "He redeemed my soul from going down to the pit, and I will live to enjoy the light" (Job 33:8, NIV).

Let It Go

I have news for you: not everything is a hill to die on.

Actually, there are very few hills to die on. Even when it comes to parenting.

I know, you have your reasons for things. You've read 17 articles about how cloth diapers are going to ensure that your child is going to be a biophysicist. Your mother sent you a book entitled "If You Don't Move to North Dakota and Homeschool Your Children They Will Be Knocking Off Liquor Stores By Age 14." Your best friend wrote a blog post about the incredible academic benefits of kids who are addicted to high fructose corn syrup and it got 5,799 likes.

I believe we live in a time where there is too much information. With Google, smart phones, Bing, Yahoo, WebMD, and apps for every possible scenario, you can research yourself to death. You can find information to support or destroy any view.  

However, there is only one hill to die on, and that's raising your children in the truth of Jesus Christ.

(Edit: There are two hills to die on. Children should never, I repeat never be abused. Physically, sexually, verbally, emotionally, or mentally. That is non-negotiable. If this is a problem in your family or with anyone you know, please seek help.)

A piece of advice: besides Jesus, very few things actually matter in the long run except for your child’s survival (and comfort, mostly because of your sanity). Okay, nurturing your child is important. But newsflash: your child will not remember (or care) if you pureed your own baby food or not. 

Please don't misunderstand me. It's wonderful to have convictions about how to raise your children! I have my convictions, too. You should have strong opinions about your parenting. Those opinions represent an active mind that cares about her children. However, someone will ALWAYS disagree with you. (And sometimes it will be your mother, your sister, or your best friend!) So do what you want and move on. Who cares if you put your child in preschool at age two or three, what month you switch to formula, or what brands of shampoo you use? Make your decisions and be done with it. If people disagree with the way you are doing things, just let them disagree. In the words of my good friend Elsa, just let it go, girlfriend. 

This can be difficult, though. Not only do you have to be at peace with the way you are doing things, but you also have to be at peace with others doing things their own way. Wake up call: unless people ask, they don’t really care about your opinion. Ouch. This is hard to swallow. But it’s true. And after you get past the initial pain from that realization – think about all the freedom it brings! You don’t have to care what others think about your decisions, and you don’t have to have an opinion about theirs, either! Hooray!

Some clarity: there's a scale to this. I fully believe God does care about every decision we make, even the tiny things. If he knows the number of hairs on our heads, then he cares about our daily lives, especially when raising children. I don't want to diminish the importance of that.

But there's a bottom line: keep the main thing the main thing. If you have a lot of opinions, but Jesus isn't the reason behind them, what's the purpose? There's no point in getting lost in the trees if you can't see why God made the forest in the first place.

You know what's especially hard about this? Mothers can get really defensive about their parenting. Sometimes, if you disagree, you can lose friends. In caring for children for over ten years (mostly in Christian environments), I have seen parents get bent out of shape over really bizarre things. (Examples: sunscreen, Justin Bieber, pet fish, hair clips, and cupcakes, just to name a few.) (Maybe cupcakes aren't so bizarre a thing to be upset about.) Sisters, most things are not worth losing sleep over! If your children don't have Jesus as their foundation, then your family nights, your discipline, your choices about their schooling, their food, their friends - none of it matters. 

How does Jesus say we should handle our disagreements? Humbly (Philippians 2:5-8, 1 Peter 5:5-6), patiently (Ephesians 4:1-3, Colossians 3:12-13), and with a controlled tongue (the whole book of James). If you exercise these attributes and you still lose friends over parenting issues, then they were never really great friends to begin with.

My prayer today is just that you'll refocus. I really hope you do have opinions on how to raise your children, even in the tiny details. But don't lose the big picture. Trust me, Jesus doesn't want you lost in those trees. He has a big picture forest of a future for you and your family. 

This is even hard for me, and I don't have children yet! Letting go can feel like such a mess, especially when you feel strongly about something and you want others to, too. Have you had parenting issues that have just turned messy? Friendships that are now broken? Made mistakes that are influencing your children in a harmful way? Put Jesus on the back-burner for too long?

Thankfully, we can't do anything that is outside the healing power of our Savior. Rest in that, friend.

Now that I've shared my opinion, feel free to take it or leave it.

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The Messy Moms Club

I remember when I joined the club.

Even though I'd been working with children for over 6 years, I feel like I didn't truly join the Messy Moms Club until I was 22 years old. I'd been teaching preschool for a few months, and I'd just accepted my first nanny job. The girls were two years old and four months old. They were adorable, both with dark hair that matched mine. When we were out and about, people commonly mistaked them as my own kids.

I got to their home around 10:00 am to relieve the mom to go to her college classes. I took over easily like usual. I'd been taking care of children in some capacity since I was a young teenager. Watching children had always been fun for me. It was a big ol' piece of cake.

"You can take the girls to Chick-fil-a for lunch," the mom said as she handed me some money. "I need to go to the store today."

"Okay!" I readily agreed. Little did I know what was waiting for me.

I liked Chick-fil-a. I mean, the place had always been good to me. Good nuggets, good fries, good times. Who doesn't like it there?

Let me tell you who doesn't. A two-year-old who wants to sit outside when it's standing room only, that's who.

There we were in line. I had everything together. I was carrying a very heavy sleeping four-month-old in her car seat (trust me, this baby was a chunk!), a diaper bag, my purse, my phone, several hair bows, a bottle, a coloring book, a doll, at least seven stuffed animals - everything but the staff of Moses, basically - AND holding the two-year-old's hand. I was feeling pretty great, honestly! If I could handle all of that, I was invincible!

Reality check: I was not invincible. It was a gorgeous day outside, which meant that the outdoor Chick-fil-a playground was extremely crowded. Actually, the whole place was crowded. I went to that Chick-fil-a countless times while we lived in that town, and it was always crowded, without exception. Even at times like 3:00 pm on a Monday, there would hardly be any tables available. So at 12:00 pm on a Friday, I'm sure you can imagine.

We were in line and I saw a table open up close to us, so I decided to grab it. I put the diaper bag down to save the space.

I felt a little tap on my leg.

"Miss Rachael?" My eyes moved from the diaper bag down to Madilyn's big, bright blue, pleading eyes. Tears were creeping in the corners. "I thought we were going to sit outside?" Her voice was trembling.

"Pumpkin, there's no room outside. We'll eat inside, but we'll go out and play right after! We can stay as long as you want."

Her voice went from innocent kitten to tortured cat in no more than 5 seconds.

"WAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!" She screamed, at the top of her teeny two-year-old lungs. "BUT - I - WANT - TO - SIT - OU-OU-OUTSIDE!" She choked out between her screams.

All 100 eyeballs in the restaurant immediately focused on me. I could feel every person thinking, "How are you going to make your screeching child be quiet?" As if that wasn't enough, the four-month-old also decided to wake up and start crying.

That was it. That was the moment I became a member of the club.

I bent down and told Madilyn that sitting outside wasn't an option and that I was sorry she felt sad. I told her that we could either eat inside or leave. It took a good 10 minutes to get her to calm down, which felt like 10 hours. I suffered through ordering while Madi was still sobbing by my side and while I was rocking Brooke (the four-month-old) at the same time. I could feel the girl taking our order thinking, "When are you going to get those kids to shut up?"

The end of the story is that Madilyn decided eating inside was acceptable and Brooke stopped crying. After, we played on the outside playground, and I proceeded to call my mother and apologized for every tantrum I ever threw in public.

Even though I'd been taking care of children in some capacity for over six years, that was the day I joined the club. For the first time, I actually knew what it felt like to be a mother.

I’m sure some of you are thinking: “You haven't birthed a child. You can't be a member.” It’s true, I’m not a mother. Yet. I can’t give you advice on morning sickness or swollen feet or growing a human inside of you. However, I have cared for more children than I can begin to count. Not only have I taught children everything from letters to swimming to sign language to writing skills, I have nannied for two wonderful families of girls over the past four years. I've done countless overnights, washed their clothes, their hair, their toys, and taken them to the doctor, the aquarium, the park, the zoo. I loved these girls like they were my own.

      

I promise I have been there. I've watched while a two-year-old decides that week-old popcorn off the ground at the zoo is an acceptable snack. I’ve been standing there while a three-year-old sobs her heart out while she sits through her time out, a.k.a. “prison sentence” because she screamed at me one time too many. I’ve been there when the 6-month-old finally gets to sleep and have ducked under the crib so she won't wake up when I leave the room, and, of course, have fallen asleep right there on the floor myself. I've heard the words, "I don't like you anymore!" and "You can't tell me what to do!" and many variations of the same thoughts. I've also heard "I love you," and gotten kisses from lips covered in popsicle remains and too much chapstick. I’ve been puked on, pooped on, colored on, peed on, juiced on, snotted on, and jumped on like a trampoline. I realize the children haven't really been mine, but I've loved them like they are. I can say with confidence, I really do understand what it feels like to be a mom. I have been there. 

It's awesome. It's hard. It's wonderful. It's a MESS. In the best way possible.

So, how about you all? When did you realize how messy being a mom is? 

I'd absolutely love to hear your stories! Hopefully, this can be a place for you to come and read, laugh, vent, and get some advice. I'd love to hear your advice, too!

Remember that parenting is an awesome journey that Jesus has you on. Even when things are messy, you can trust, laugh, and cry with him. Take everything to him first and the rest will fall into place.

"She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future" (Proverbs 31:25, NLT).